By: ujai

ujai — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 15:48:07 +0000

Sorry to hear the bad news dude.. Maybe you should get some space for now.. who knows.. maybe you’ll find a more suitable partner in the future.. or maybe you guys could come back together.. Just try your best if you feel it’s the right way..

By: Farah

Farah — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 16:55:35 +0000

I’m sorry it has to end like this. 4years of relationship n it ends with a simple status change in fb. I knw it was cruel of me n i still cant stop blaming myself for it but i cant think of any other way to do it. We’ll just keep on postponing this if we talk abt it 1st so i had to b brave, n i had to be quick, though it pains me to the core. I knw i shouldve been stronger, i shouldve been more like u, quit thinking of the future or wht ppl say abt us n just live in the moment. But u knw me. U knw i cant do tht. I cant just ignore it when ppl asked me to break it off with u, or when ppl prompt me to think of the future.. I overthink things. Sometimes it even leads to paranoia. N to me, wht ppl say matters. I knw i shouldve considered ur feelings too.. But being under pressure by u knw whom, i just had to succumb to it.. Im sorry.. I am terribly sad too now. I don’t feel like eating, I don’t feel like getting out of bed, I’d wake up abruptly every few hours while sleeping n cry, i don’t feel like talking to my friends but i had to to avoid thinking abt u, i had to constantly remind myself that u r no longer mine which sucks big time, i miss u, i miss us…
N i hope u knw tht i still love u. I do. U r my first love. U taught me how to love, how to care for someone more than i could ever imagine i would, u made me feel loved, u made me feel like im the most beautiful person on earth, u gave me confidence, u inspire me, u made me feel happy ive never known such happiness exists before, u made me feel protected, u made me do crazy things on impulse, u taught me a lot of things in life n u were always there when i needed u. U were my bestfriend, u were my lover, u were my everything. N to give up all that is such a big loss to me… I dont knw if i can love anyone again as much as i love u.. U were such a big part of my life that i just cant imagine how i’d go on without u. I knw i have to let u go which for now, im refusing to. I guess i’d have to be strong though. I’d have to let u go someday… N u must let me go too. I want u to be happy. I want u to meet somebody n be blessed with a wonderful love life. I want u to get married with someone u n ur family love n have cute kids n live happily forever. This comes from the bottom of my heart. Im sorry too for all the bad things ive done, i knw i brought a lot of miseries to u especially when im being insecure n sensitive for no reason at all… I have a lot more to say to u but i cant seem to let it all out here. N u knw im not good with words..so yeah..thank u for everything. Thank u so much. Thank u for this blog post n for the song dedications. I’ll never forget u Kah Fung. U will forever be in my heart. I love u. Take care now.

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